“How
does anyone else here deal with schizophrenia.
how
have you dealt with homelessness and other things. the agitation and
delusions are disruptive. makes it harder.
how
do you survive. or are you safe. i sometimes find it hard to stay
alive. my thoughts are broken a lot.”
“I'm
not really sure wtf I have. I've had pretty severe versions of all
the negative symptoms pretty much my entire life but no
hallucinations, delusions or voices.”
“I'm
on the schizophrenia spectrum. In 2013 I thought a government
satellite called the brain wave made me be able to talk to anybody
via thoughts and telepathy, I guess. Had conversations with people
and heard voices. Walked to an airport and thought I was getting a
plane to Sweden. It's a long story but I live at home and haven't
been homeless yet. I get an injection of Invega monthly and for 4
years now I've been free of that stuff. Struggled with alcohol
before. It's isolating but that's the way it's always been. I'm 33
and it didn't manifest till my late 20s.”
“I
was diagnosed with a form of schizophrenia earlier this year. I tried
medication, but hated it. The doctor told me I will fry my brain
without medication within half decade, but so be it.
Best
bet is things will only get harder mentally every year. I don't have
auditory hallucinations, but I have lot of paranoia, delusions and a
sense of having parapsychic abilities. I have had to deal with
emotional disturbance unlike ever before this year and can't always
control my psyche like before.”
“this
shit is fucking scary.
halluzinations,
like sound or voices, things moving in the corners of my eye,
sometimes feels like eyes can't focus on anything and i'm like blind
for several seconds.
intrusive
thoughts full of violence or things I really don't want to think
about but that keep creeping into my mind.
then
there is also depersonalization, being tired all the time and a loss
of a feeling for time.
I
think i'm really losing it, my biggest problem will be that I tried
to pretend I have nothing for so long and then having it to explain
to parents and doctors who will then put me on some medication that I
don't want.”
“I
have mild schizophrenia I keep mostly under control, I was on
anti-psychotics for a while but I stopped taking them due to side
effects. I just try to be true to myself, tell the truth, that's the
biggest thing. The hallucinations are the only thing that I just have
to deal with, I only get split second views of things, giant bugs,
shadow men, sometimes they startle me but it's not too bad”
“I've
been thinking for a while that i may be in early stages or something,
i've been talking to myself a lot without realizing it, having a
conversation with someone out of nowhere for a few seconds then snap
out of it, and a couple of times when i was extremely tired i heared
inaudible whispers right before going to bed.
I'm
also a little emotionally unstable.”
“somewhere
I read that shizophrenia develops in your early 20s. So if you guys
are in that age group, you might be on to something.
I
read some time ago about simple schizophrenia and the more time
passes, the more I believe I might be affected by it or that it is
developing in me.”
“my
solution is suicide”
“im
schizoid”
“Most
people here who think that they are Schizoid likely aren't Schizoid.”
“There's
probably more schizoids here than anywhere else on the world though.
This is Schizoland. But yeah, I'd be careful about self-diagnosis. On
the schizoid reddit page there are so-called schizoids who are
married. I can't even imagine that, I'm completely non-functional.”
‘Son of perdition. Little horn! Swine! Most unclean!’
“For
the most part, yeah, except for stuff like dementia and
schizophrenia. I only use my diagnosis as an explanation to others
for my behavior if I'm in a situation that demands it, but I don't
consider myself mentally ill or that there's anything wrong with me.
Clinical depression is probably the biggest meme mental illness, the
chemical model of depression is in the process of being discredited.”
“Yep.
SSRI's are one of the biggest hoaxes of our time too, you should see
some of the research coming out now about the epigenetic effects of
those, especially on adolescents and succubi who take them during
pregnancy. The biological degeneration of modern man is very real.”
“you
can't save these subhumans with their addict mentalities. There's no
hope for humanity as a whole.”
“i
was diagnosed with it (though the psychiatrist also thought i might
have avoidant personality disorder but that's bullshit because i
don't want relationships with other people). she seemed suspicious of
me until i took the mmpi-2 which suggested schizoid personality
disorder”
“The
Department of Defense is spying on what you do online.”
“So
be mindful of what you have to say about yourself to us.”
“Mentally
ill people tend to commit more crimes.”
“Who
would believe in you if you told them we're playing mind games with
you?”
You
are in your underwear.
“i
sometimes feel like being alone makes it more difficult. people talk
too fucking much. people need to shut up and be quiet for once in
their damned lives”
“I
have catatonic schizophrenia. Life isn't too bad. I subsist on
government bux and have a care worker who comes round to check on me.
I sometimes worry I'll get put in a ward though, as sometimes I'm
incredibly unresponsive to the outside world and don't move or act at
all for the best part of a day. My only real wish is to be able to
feed myself more so they are less concerned.”
“I
try to keep all pointed ends on furniture padded. For some reason the
fact that my furniture is brown seems to make me hallucinate the
picture to the left after I haven't slept in a few days.
Why
did they have to leave the square coffee table in my room.
Also…my
carpet starts to look like living ants moving around. Does anyone
else have this?”
“Yeah.
I know what you mean. Sometimes I can feel the energy being produced
and emanated by objects and people, and can hear the cells in my
eyelids vibrate when I blink.
Sometimes
I even feel what other people are feeling in real time as they are
reading my posts over the internet.”
“Sometimes
I use Tor, but fear the government can still see what I'm doing.
What
if Tor is just a giant honeypot? It was setup and is funded by the
government. Why wouldn't they collude?”
“>What
if Tor is just a giant honeypot?
It
is, the exit nodes are run by the FBI”
You
are dreaming right now…
