While looking for ways to plan my suicide I found this website http://lostallhope.com/ it describes some methods to kill yourself,written by a guy that was supposedly going to kill himself.
I stumbled upon the "my story" section and upon reading the following I became very angry "On the outside, people would describe me as a pretty normal type of guy. Loving family, good job, success at my pastimes, including national championships at softball and dancing. Good friends, nice flat, classy car, financially secure, tall and in great physical shape. On the face of it, probably the last person you'd think would want to kill themselves. But as you'll probably know, what people see on the outside, and what goes on inside, are often very different."
I know that I shouldn't care about normalfags and their shit,but this made me mad because I don't know how someone with all those things can still talk about depression,for some people depression is actually a thing of just "getting over it" if he wanted he could get rid of his depression much more easily than me or many of us,he has actually a good life so he can get on his feet really easily after beating depression.
I don't have any of those things,I have an absolutely horrible family,no job (and no fucking way to get one except a McJob),absolutely no successes I can think of,no friends,a shitty house (with a shitty family),no car (I don't care,I don't have anywhere to go anyway) and don't have any money,depression is just another stone of a very big list of problems, part of a very fucked up life,even if I beat depression (as if) my life would still be objectively shit.
While there's people out there that have "depression" while their lives are actually great,or they have "depression" just because something small didn't go their way.
This just makes me rage,after I neck myself I hope a meteorite or something else wipes everyone,this world is truly shitty and should cease to exist already.
I stumbled upon the "my story" section and upon reading the following I became very angry "On the outside, people would describe me as a pretty normal type of guy. Loving family, good job, success at my pastimes, including national championships at softball and dancing. Good friends, nice flat, classy car, financially secure, tall and in great physical shape. On the face of it, probably the last person you'd think would want to kill themselves. But as you'll probably know, what people see on the outside, and what goes on inside, are often very different."
I know that I shouldn't care about normalfags and their shit,but this made me mad because I don't know how someone with all those things can still talk about depression,for some people depression is actually a thing of just "getting over it" if he wanted he could get rid of his depression much more easily than me or many of us,he has actually a good life so he can get on his feet really easily after beating depression.
I don't have any of those things,I have an absolutely horrible family,no job (and no fucking way to get one except a McJob),absolutely no successes I can think of,no friends,a shitty house (with a shitty family),no car (I don't care,I don't have anywhere to go anyway) and don't have any money,depression is just another stone of a very big list of problems, part of a very fucked up life,even if I beat depression (as if) my life would still be objectively shit.
While there's people out there that have "depression" while their lives are actually great,or they have "depression" just because something small didn't go their way.
This just makes me rage,after I neck myself I hope a meteorite or something else wipes everyone,this world is truly shitty and should cease to exist already.
> It did not matter what I achieved; how successful the charity work; how good a relationship I had. It would NEVER be enough
^^The mind of a norc, wizards. I also wish for a sudden gamma ray burst, or nuclear war to strike. Painless death for everyone. Salvation in death.
^^The mind of a norc, wizards. I also wish for a sudden gamma ray burst, or nuclear war to strike. Painless death for everyone. Salvation in death.
Its just reality that 99% of depressed people have it better than us. That's why I see no point in talking to anyone or caring. There are 0 similarities between me and other people, except that we were born 'human'.
I like knowing my suicide is rational, and not simply an explosion of emotion. Being consistently rationally suicidal for over 10 years now is pretty good evidence.
But certainly one factor I take in, is if so many people with objectively much bettter lives than me suicide, how can I not? If I shouldn't suicide no one ever should
But certainly one factor I take in, is if so many people with objectively much bettter lives than me suicide, how can I not? If I shouldn't suicide no one ever should
>>169244 (OP)
So essentially what you're saying is that the cure for depression is money.
So essentially what you're saying is that the cure for depression is money.
Get over yourself. There are innumerable methods by which someone can suffer to the point of wanting to die. I was extremely judgemental for most of my life and it just got worse over time. I hated people so much that I wanted to and was making elaborate schemes to go postal. I also hated how limited my sense of freedom was. The idea of having to eat and drink to survive had been a thorn in my side since I was in the 6th grade. Sure, my suffering is all self inflicted. I don't have a sob story beyond saying that I was a huge asshole and probably still am to some degree. Do you think being a normie like him would have made it easier to change my mind? If I had all of that cash I would already be dead and I probably would've taken out 50 other people at the least. How about that limited sense of freedom I mentioned? How is that any different from your problems? All of which I share by the way, assuming you listed everything, they just don't bother me. That isn't something I can just get over is it, and yet it's something that I did. If anything you listed had changed it wouldn't have been enough to stop me because the first two problems were on an entirely different level of importance. If a normie is serious about suicide rather than being dramatic it's because they have similar problems that can't be fixed just because of their position. Psychiatrists and medicine companies want you to think that you can buy mental health, but that shit is impossible.
>>169259
No,I never said that.
I said that the fact that people with much better lives still think that they are "as depressed" as me makes me rage.
Lots of wizards have it real hard, they live with abusive (both physical and psychological) families,work shit jobs to survive,struggle with loneliness,struggle with finding a purpose or talent.
Now imagine that a fucking normie with none of those problems tells you "I have a great life ,an awesome family that always supports me and helps me when I need it,I'm the CEO of this memecompany,have lots of friends,and I'm national champion of x stupid shit….but I'm still as depressed as you bruh,I know It's hard…but there's always hope so keep it up :D.
That's what enrages me,they are truly a different species,the fact that they somehow think that they're similar to me with the same problems as me is disgusting.
No,I never said that.
I said that the fact that people with much better lives still think that they are "as depressed" as me makes me rage.
Lots of wizards have it real hard, they live with abusive (both physical and psychological) families,work shit jobs to survive,struggle with loneliness,struggle with finding a purpose or talent.
Now imagine that a fucking normie with none of those problems tells you "I have a great life ,an awesome family that always supports me and helps me when I need it,I'm the CEO of this memecompany,have lots of friends,and I'm national champion of x stupid shit….but I'm still as depressed as you bruh,I know It's hard…but there's always hope so keep it up :D.
That's what enrages me,they are truly a different species,the fact that they somehow think that they're similar to me with the same problems as me is disgusting.
>>169259
>So essentially what you're saying is that the cure for depression is money
If I was given a million bucks right now, my depression might not go away, but I'm pretty sure I could easily distract myself from it for the rest of my life
>So essentially what you're saying is that the cure for depression is money
If I was given a million bucks right now, my depression might not go away, but I'm pretty sure I could easily distract myself from it for the rest of my life
>>169355
Same. MY NEET life is not great, but theres no necessity to end it until forced to. So if I had the $$$ to securely extend it indefinitely, I could live the natural course of a life.
Same. MY NEET life is not great, but theres no necessity to end it until forced to. So if I had the $$$ to securely extend it indefinitely, I could live the natural course of a life.
I know this site OP. The methods it gives are described vaguely. Its also a fashion today to pretend to be "deep" and over emotional about stupid shit - im not like everybody else. This guy is just a special snowflake. His "Story" is truly one of the most ridiculous suicide stories. Wheres the trauma part? wheres the bullying? wheres the crappy parents and everyone hates you? Nah, this guy has it too good. Maybe he got bored from a too good life. No wonder he changed his mind about suicide and "somehow" got out of it all.
Maybe Like young budha he wanted to go on a journey and discover the worlds suffering, "safely" of course. Like a trip with friends and family. Or maybe he is just a retarded poser goth.
Maybe Like young budha he wanted to go on a journey and discover the worlds suffering, "safely" of course. Like a trip with friends and family. Or maybe he is just a retarded poser goth.