Violent
Superficiality
A
great step forward was made the day men understood that in order to
torment one another more efficiently they would have to gather
together, to organize themselves into a society…
All
those people who resort to spreading advice along the lines of 'just
do it' or 'things are not so bad' or 'life is good and if you think
otherwise you are weak/ it's your fault/ you fail morally' etc.
actually don't think about these things the way we think about it. At
best they refer to a popular author. If they do this they will always
(no exceptions to be made) find something about the author which
proves that he somehow was pro life - and instantly all their
ambitions to think about central questions of existence for
themselves diminish. Their favorite author has done it so they
blindly give the burden up to him. Some advice 'Create your own
values' - bullshit line, to create any sort of 'own' value a
ridiculous amount of physical and psychological preconditions have to
apply.
They
simply say these platitudes so they don't have to deal with this
stuff themselves because they deeply fear or maybe even know that
once you think about it too much there might be no hope or good thing
left. They don't want to see how reality is because they are scared
to discover something they won't like. Having this fear is probably a
close to a biological survival instinct. Less thinking about stuff
makes it easier to do something.
This
does not necessarily mean that reality really is all that bad. But to
deal with it on a basic level cannot be done without suffering.
Suffering is maybe not the only part of reality but most people don't
want to realize that it is at least an unavoidable part. Instead
society is built in a way that any deviant behavior is considered
pathological. They believe that so-called weaknesses (often even
pain) etc. are a subjective flaw instead of an inherent part of life
which cannot be deactivated.
I
think it's worth it to go through certain stages of self-observation.
Seeing reality for what it is can help to reevaluate oneself. And it
especially helps to free oneself from the set of grueling delusions
which society is. It does not help to stop suffering. And certainly a
high level of and yearslong self-observation and a thinking process
that doesn't break as soon as anything unpleasant comes to mind will
often leave you crippled. But without all that I don't think it's
worth to keep going. And if after that process you think that it's
worth to keep going then it's interesting to see why but only then.
Most people actually are boring and cruelly superficial and this is
what scares me.
An
interesting thing I saw about successful people is that they seem to
have an inborn instinct to seek doing what they do for their living.
For example I researched about Michael Schumacher, the Formula 1
pilot, because I asked myself how he became the best pilot of his
era. Surprise surprise, turns out he was into driving go kart since
he was a child. It is only normal that he became the best. He had an
inner desire to keep doing this and every time he did it, he gained
experience and skill. Eventually he had to be very good in it.
However,
the typical human, in contrast to this phenomenon, has no passion. He
is living a mindless life of passivity and doing what other people
(parents, teachers, boss) are telling him to do. His ultimate passion
does not exist or if he has one, it is one that cannot be marketed
for money.
It
is only natural that normal people cannot comprehend us. They had
their passions since childhood. Or they did discover them later in
life. They cannot understand that a grown up man can have no
passions, no ambitions, no real hobbies and no desires for future.
This concept is totally alien to them and therefore they are
especially repulsed when they meet someone like us. They will then
resort to void phrases like: "just find something you love
brah", "just do x brah".
Same
thing with Bill Gates and Keiichi Tsuchiya or Steve Jobs.
No,
don't you see.
The
"law of attraction" is what governs the universe. It's so
simple that it flew under Newton's and Einstein's radars but
twenty-year old succubi and normies understand it perfectly.
If
you don't have it you don't want it bad enough.
To
quote Dave Chappelle:
"problem
is you have a bad attitude about starving to death"
This
is a source of pretty consistent concern for me. Unlike most people,
I have taken close looks at the foundations of my beliefs, values,
&c., and it is pretty shocking just how much I only have a
shallow understanding of or take for granted. If I had to guess why
this is so prevalent, I would say that people, including myself,
often do not realize the true amount of information behind any idea
or piece of knowledge. In other words, the Dunning-Kruger effect.
People would probably stop acting like shallow jackasses if they were
a bit more modest in their assumptions about how much they know, but
that will never happen.
Its
fucking sad to see this every time. An alcohol addict sleeping in the
grass, dirtpoor, sick, lonely. A granny with stale face who's
probably living her last hours in senior shelter. A poor young men
covered in debts and loans, obviously in situation without exit.
And
yet, normal people think that they'd better live then be quickly put
out of miserable existence. Extended living of those people would be
more pricey then utilization of body and measures taken to deliver a
lethal dose of poison.
On
the other side, I see where the trends are going. From the sexual
revolution, marking the reform of the society to give permission of
reproduction from everyone to only chosen ones, the way from quantity
to quality. And slowly, this pattern gets more affection and
approval, this place is the example. Relatively soon there will
finally be suicide booths (not literally, but similar measures to
it), and I'm talking about like ~50 years more, as number of useless
members of society continues to grow. That's not the precise number,
rather an assumption, but for a future wizards, I think this would be
a greatest opportunity to escape existence rather than risky
implementation of suicide. But until this moment, we can only deal
with this cancerous and outdated model of ethics that every human is
precious and valuable, as well as suicide prevention programs,
instead of allocating resources for more efficient and productive
measures.
“Enjoying
things. Even though I suffered from depression, and am on SSRI now,
I'm still as mentally hungry now as I was when I was 21, just with a
different perspective.
I
enjoying shooting and am getting into gunsmithing and reloading. I'm
working toward getting enough money to buy my own property so I can
shoot and hunt without worrying about people starting a bitch because
of someone stepping on their toes. Fishing, learning about science,
finishing Heidegger's oeuvre.
My
only worry is that depression is irreducibly tied to a lack of human
love, and that's a problem for me still because I am still annoyed to
hell by people, find them boring or a pain in the ass that requires
more work than I can already stomach after dealing with asshole
bosses all day, and contemporary succubi are absolute garbage imo.”
My
motivation for continuing to live is "just in case." If I
end my life now, I am possibly missing future opportunities to end my
life under more favorable or glamorous circumstances. Killing myself
for no reason other than my dissatisfaction with life seems so boring
and wasteful.
Hell
cannot exist if there are no objective morals.
There
is no hell or heaven, morals arose to give rise to social cohesion
and nothing more.
Life
is darwinism and we are just biological machines.
Read
Dawkins, Hamilton, Fischer, Ridley, Buss and etc… everything is
just darwinism and nothing more.
We
are so hard wired by our instincts thar even free will do not exist,
everything is subjected to physical laws.
Evolutionary
psychology and sexual selection in humans will make you understand
how much of animals we are.
Hell…Hell
is originally from Hel, a pagan goddess of the underworld in the
norse mythology Incorporated by christians since they couldn't get
rid of it, just like Easter or Christmas, all absorbed by
Christianity since they couldn't make pagans forget their festivals.
Such
ignorant people…
“Fear
from Hell.
I'm
not religious, but still fear from it.”
There
is a paradox involved for me. I know that my life will never improve.
That makes me suicidal. So I tell myself, if I'm prepared to kill
myself then I have nothing to lose and that makes me feel better. So
I wait a while. Then the realisation hits me that my life will never
improve. And that makes me suicidal…
I
have come to realise that the fear of trying to improve my life in
any way or step outside my comfort zone is more frightening than
death. Even with no hope and literally nothing to lose, I make no
efforts to change my situation. And that is the problem. My fear of
failure and embarrassment even encroaches on the potential act
itself. I was making plans recently about how I'd go through with it
and what preparations I would need to take in advance to "get my
affairs in order". The thing that worried me most was the
prospect of someone finding my personal journals or going through my
internet history etc. So I made plans to destroy everything
beforehand. Its crazy, the fear of humiliation extends beyond the
grave for me
Bottom
line, I'm just a coward deluded into thinking that divine
intervention or pure luck will hand a comfortable and non-depressed
life to me on a plate. And so I continue to exist, despite doing
literally nothing with my life but sit in the house and ruminate on
how sad I am. Wouldn't be so bad if I at least enjoyed video games or
some other hobby. There is simply nothing for me to do but sit around
and be sad…
i
feel like shit all the time
i
fear having a major health problem because that means going to the
hospital and going to the hospital means bills, cant drink and cant
smoke. i want to die i really do but i just dont like the thought of
cutting myself, hanging myself and a shotgun seems okay but i dont
like how you have one shot and either die or live worse by force from
doctors. i also hate that i live in the city with my parents if a gun
went off literally everyone would instantly come and try to find out
whats going on
id
honestly like to be friend someone hitch a ride with them some place
deep and wooded, dig me grave and take about 15 shells to the head
for assurance and then cover me up with some lime and dirt and just
be gone
its
just a nice thought but i doubt i could find anyone to do it
any
advice on how to come to terms with the whole hospital stuff and them
forcing you to eat their way and not smoking? that really really
makes me feel like ill eventually end up a "slave" of
sorts. legally bound to be "fixed" but i still have to pay
ffs i just want to fall over dead
“My
iron will, sometimes i look back on the past 13 years and just wonder
to myself why i didnt kill myself then, but i remember its my intense
hate/wrath is the only reason i keep going.
Im
currently purchasing as many guns and ammunition as i can, but im
waiting either for some extreme societal collapse or some sort of
apocolypse.
If
the happening doesnt happen i figure ill just go to a mall and kill
as many normies and chads and succubi as i can.
Every
person has a purpose, but you can either live with a whimper and go
out with a bang, or let them win.
IM
going to have the last laugh, thats what i decided when i was a child
a long time ago, thats the reason i continue to suffer.
I
know this is edgy but the difference between me and imature
teenagers, is ill really go through with it.”
My
genes won't replicate but my memes WILL, and through that my genes
will win, even if I am a genetic dead end, more than that, there will
be natural eugenics and stronger blood ties like the Rothschild does.
“ She
hanged herself with a scarf in her closet.
My
mother became obsessed with The Secret and the idea that all of
life's problems, including physical and mental illnesses, can be
solved through positive thinking.
Her
father became suicidal for a while.
I
fell into a depressive episode—technically a mixed episode because
of my bipolar disorder, but whatever the label, I have felt sad all
of the time since her death. Other factors contributed too, but her
suicide stays with me all of the time.
Her
extended family was shaken by the loss, especially since most are
Catholic. They've apparently taken pains to hide her cause of death
from her grandmother so she doesn't think my sister is in Hell.”
I
still have hope that way down the line I can live away from
everything and cure myself.
Finding
a place and time I can breath in again and I think can.
That
and knowing that my suicide would likely make more people miserable,
which would just be transferring the pain to others.
